Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Ending & Beginning

Mediation is over! We settled! It was a very hard day, but I got enough to pay off my student loan. 8 1/2 years I've been battling this auto insurance crap. Whew, I feel like I've gotten a new start on life. Now Chris & I can think about having a baby...

I'm planning on renting an office space from my chiropractor, in Orem, for my private practice. I'm hoping to start in early June, if everything goes as planned. 309 N. State St. I'm excited! I still have to order business cards, get a phone line, follow-up on an Orem business license, get billing software, finish my website, and a few other things. There's so much to do to prepare for the start of a new business. I might need a vacation!

I'm excited Chris and I can finally rely on one income, allowing me to try this new business adventure. I'm happy to be closing a rough chapter of my life, but a strange part of me hates to see it close. I feel guilty. No, that's not the right word. Scared? I want to move on, but at the same time hate to let go. Does that make ANY sense? I don't think so either! Maybe I fear losing part of my identity? I just don't want to ever forget Steven and I don't want others to either. As nice as it is to not have to worry quite so much about my medical expenses, it doesn't really make it all go away, or even make it better. You know, I'd give up millions of dollars to be the person I was before my car accident. I'd love to get my brain, my memory, my back, my shoulder, my ribs, and my life back. I miss me. Sorry to have rambled for so long, I've just got a lot on my mind. Very few people get it. I'm hoping the computer does. ;)

Maybe Chris and I will take a little vacation for our 2 year anniversary, coming up on June 2nd.

5 comments:

Lindsay and Mike said...

I'm glad you finally settled! Insurance companies are AWFUL!

Thorpe Family said...

Hey, Aimee! I am throwing a Ward Pampered Chef Party on May 19th at 6:30. I would LOVE for you to be there! Hopefully we can get a bunch of girls's from our ward to come hang out and eat some really yummy food! Let me know if you can make it! bthorpe.sw@hotmail.com

The Evans said...

Yeah the accident must be hard and it will take a while to overcome. When I had an accident and every time I drive again I'm always paranoid about when people press brake and I would slamed at it but far from other car. ANyway Glad you accomplish something that you finally have waited for so long its better to be your own boss than under boss! TOTALLY! I enjoy your blog thanks for sharing. BTW congrat on your considering having a baby!!! ;-)

Jessica said...

Glad to hear that that chapter in your life can come to a close.

yummy wasabi said...

Yes, Aims, that makes complete sense. Steven was your husband. You will always love him and he will always be a part of you. That doesn't mean you love Chris any less, it just makes you hold on to him that much tighter. Heavenly Father must love you a whole whole lot to give you two loves, and two lives. I love the girl you are today. Change is always hard, but it's just a new chapter in your part of the great and eternal plan. I love your guts and I'm so happy for you to be able to finally close the door on the chapter and not the memories.